is currently reading Wuthering Heights..
which i found tedious and dry as it was all about conflicts between men and women...
*should add water to that book to make it wet*
all of them devote feelings of selfishness..
yet introduced in a different way by the author..
the characters provoke an ironic feeling in me..
with the contrast feelings bothering all day..
i had to stop all my daily activities and calm down..

[how are you going to reach the stars when you don't have a ladder]



went to the school library today and i was astounded when i pass through the shelves..
i found books which i have been hunting in vain..
there was a vast collection of classical literature..
i was happy chewing those pages of the books..
went hunting for a book written by Ian Flemming..
007..i want to know more about it..M is a guy which i didn't expected that shit..
cause all along i thought M was a women!! until..
flipping through my tuition homework during maths class and i saw that line..
M IS A MAN!!dumbstruck!



during Malay class..Rohayah was somewhere in the school grounds..
yet she didn't showed up for class..
during that 40 minutes i hoarded my evoking contrast feelings to show that i am perfectly alright!
i nearly broke down because of being envious..
it is just a feeling which i felt abandoned and living through my own world..
and looking through you guys was like an inquisitive child like peeping through a translucent glass..
i see you but you don't see me cause i am from outer space..
laughing,slapping backs and getting high on the conservations..
i won't be able to mix in because i am different..
it is like no matter how much you tried you end up in vanity..
you put 102% effort yet receiving 0% from them..
i waited in a forlorn hope..do i look that aloof to you?
i don't care how you think of me anymore..
saying that i am testing your patience..it was you who fib and telling sweet lies..
everything you promised was nothing but merely a child's play..liar..