Saturday 06/02/2010

first time..i detest school so much in my 17 years..when the decoration ended..i felt fear..fear of going back to the class..those faces who i fear and reject..once so familiar yet so distance..

everyone had their circle of life..it surrounds them..like the plant,water,sun beam and air..it just depends what you are to them..i don't want to face the cruel criticism..i am scared..i just want to escape the sun yet i couldn't..

9.00am
i cried with joy because i scored 42/50 in my essay..there were eyes envying on me yet i could not be bothered..that was mine..my hardship..all those months of training and humiliation..just to become a swan out of the duckling pack..you won't understand what i had been through because you wasn't THAT hurt..no matter how much you insisted that you know my feelings yet you aren't me..you won't feel the same pain..like the sharp thin air you inhaled..hurting you each time you breath..

first time..i was so down in school..i was becoming more emo..why?because of you..denying everything you did which hurt me..even an infinity of sorry could not erase the wound..the old scar was torn and was replaced by new scars..do you have a heart?

don't say you cared about me..you just hated me..losers..saw the pack of you snatching for the SPM past year papers like hyenas..hah..no matter how many you get..you won't get an A because you didn't practice..practice makes perfect..bye to all..i am leaving..

i need to focus..exam's are around the corner..i need to pay 100% attention to my goal..i won't care anymore..no matter how you push me..i am different..

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