Saturday 17/10/2009

seriously i sat down today and started pondering and in the end i let all my imagination flew all around the place which soon started to fill my head..what i was thinking include:

1.my results..seriously i had been looking forward to this exam because it meant too much to me for it decides whether should i stay or should i leave kuen cheng..i cried because of my chemistry paper the paper 2 because i got 28.5/60 but instead my paper 3 i got 31.5/40 which was like a waste..so i cried because i cannot accept the fact i sulk all day no matter how the sun shined..mom,it is not i don't care about my result but is the fact i don't want you to worry that is why i will never cry nor complain in front of you!!

2.班级赛..in SR1scB we friends that met at JR2B reunited yet the feeling was different..once so close yet now it felt so far apart..once we used to joke, laugh and cherished happy moments yet after two years time changed us and what have we all become? the purity in the soul had been swept under the rug, now we are all eager to chase for the marks and the war explode among us or maybe we are just too sure about each others personality and we started to choose friends.."do you remember the time we had"-michael jackson..what had been gone is lost in the wind and what can we do is remember them when the wind chimes in our memory and when time pass it all became blurry and we start another new journey..

3.hmm...吴老师。。seriously i had not been talking to her for after i got my second term result,BECAUSE!!i felt awkward and ashamed to face her since she had so high hopes in me and now i think that she don't even want to care about me?!! but i will feel depressed if 洪老师don't care about me..i will CRY~~!

all these questions spin about in my head and is tossing hear and there or course i had nightmares but who cares? i care about myself and that is enough..i saw him playing football on wednesday..such a darling~~